August 22, 2006, Tuesday,
Me and My Thoughts:

Today I am still exhausted. I am being a pain towards Mike about exercising. Today we had to walk 4 minutes and run 2 minutes, 5 times each. I only made it 3 times. I can't control my breathing. We did this later in the day. Today at about 10:30 I went to my famiy Dr, Dr. T, to do a pulse survey for Tachycardia. Everthing was good, Dr. T also showed me how to breath to control my pulse and said try Valarian Root Extract (it helps to calm the body). We played scrabble and hung around the house.

I have mixed feelings about yesterday. Like I said about the signs they can be contorted to work in your favor or against you. I want this so bad. I want to be in the Army, but I feel like the universe is working against me. I have had to loose already 72 lbs. to do the ARMS test and now I have to loose another 12 lbs. On top of that my pulse is wacked out and I have to do the ortho consult. Plus I am not happy with my recruiter. I haven't said much to Mike about it yet because I am trying to give him the benefit of the doubt, but he is skeevy (and something isn't right). God please help me get in!!!!