January 7, 2007, Sunday:
My Last Entry Before Shipping:
Yesterday, Saturday, Jan. 6, 2007, my husband, Mike had a going away party for me. It was so wonderful. Everyone came and said Congrats, good luck and good bye. It was hard for me to say good bye. At first I was saying it like "good bye, I'll see you tomorrow . . ." then I realized I wouldn't. That most of the people there I would not see until either March 23 or May 23rd. Half way through the party I went over and put my face in Mike's chest. I needed to be close to him, I needed to know he was there and to hold him. I realized that I would soon be saying my good byes to him and I didn't think I could handle it. Throughout the party I kept looking at him and inside I was smiling. I know how much he loves me, he went through all of this trouble to not only have this party, but to train me to get me into shape and taught me a lot about the military. Honestly I would not be doing this without his support.
So after the party I was at home and would have tears coming down my face at different times. Sometimes they just prick my eyes and I can push them back, but other times they slip away from the rims of my eyelids and I feel the liquid fall down my face and feel the saddness of leaving everyone with each one falling off of my jawline. Jasper (my dog) crawled up next to me and laid next to me all night and the saddest moment for me was when he licked my cheek as another tear fell down my face. Am I a panzy for crying? Maybe, but I am not afraid to admit that I am sad leaving everyone and what I know as my life.
Today however was different. I woke up with no feeling. I knew I felt sad, excited, scared, nervous, etc., but I couldn't physically feel those emotions. Mike and I watched Children of Men (great show by the way) and then immediately went to watch Happily N'ever After (not so good show-walked out). But before Happily N'ever After started Mike was saying how much he is going to miss me and more tears were released from my tear ducts.
Don't get me wrong, I want to do this so badly, but it is hard to leave loved ones. However, I have already met about 6 females that will be going through basic the same time as me and I realize that I will not be alone and will be making another kind of family. Not replacing, just a different one. I am excited to meet all the soldiers that will be in my company, platoon, squad and to start working as one.
Well, this is my last entry. Mike will be updating my journal with the letters I send home while I am in training. If I don't get a chance to write everyone, just know I am thinking of you, but time is limited and there is so much to be done in my down time.
Take care everyone. I love all of you!!!
My new blog is http://bctftjacksonsc.blogspot.com/
My AIT blog will be http://aitftleeva.blogspot.com/ (after March 26th).
My Last Entry Before Shipping:
Yesterday, Saturday, Jan. 6, 2007, my husband, Mike had a going away party for me. It was so wonderful. Everyone came and said Congrats, good luck and good bye. It was hard for me to say good bye. At first I was saying it like "good bye, I'll see you tomorrow . . ." then I realized I wouldn't. That most of the people there I would not see until either March 23 or May 23rd. Half way through the party I went over and put my face in Mike's chest. I needed to be close to him, I needed to know he was there and to hold him. I realized that I would soon be saying my good byes to him and I didn't think I could handle it. Throughout the party I kept looking at him and inside I was smiling. I know how much he loves me, he went through all of this trouble to not only have this party, but to train me to get me into shape and taught me a lot about the military. Honestly I would not be doing this without his support.
So after the party I was at home and would have tears coming down my face at different times. Sometimes they just prick my eyes and I can push them back, but other times they slip away from the rims of my eyelids and I feel the liquid fall down my face and feel the saddness of leaving everyone with each one falling off of my jawline. Jasper (my dog) crawled up next to me and laid next to me all night and the saddest moment for me was when he licked my cheek as another tear fell down my face. Am I a panzy for crying? Maybe, but I am not afraid to admit that I am sad leaving everyone and what I know as my life.
Today however was different. I woke up with no feeling. I knew I felt sad, excited, scared, nervous, etc., but I couldn't physically feel those emotions. Mike and I watched Children of Men (great show by the way) and then immediately went to watch Happily N'ever After (not so good show-walked out). But before Happily N'ever After started Mike was saying how much he is going to miss me and more tears were released from my tear ducts.
Don't get me wrong, I want to do this so badly, but it is hard to leave loved ones. However, I have already met about 6 females that will be going through basic the same time as me and I realize that I will not be alone and will be making another kind of family. Not replacing, just a different one. I am excited to meet all the soldiers that will be in my company, platoon, squad and to start working as one.
Well, this is my last entry. Mike will be updating my journal with the letters I send home while I am in training. If I don't get a chance to write everyone, just know I am thinking of you, but time is limited and there is so much to be done in my down time.
Take care everyone. I love all of you!!!
My new blog is http://bctftjacksonsc.blogspot.com/
My AIT blog will be http://aitftleeva.blogspot.com/ (after March 26th).
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